invisible
I bought a bunch of eucalyptus and now my kitchen smells great. My hands smell great. I was struggling with my Ikea kitchen scissors when…
I bought a bunch of eucalyptus and now my kitchen smells great. My hands smell great. I was struggling with my Ikea kitchen scissors when I remembered that I had clippers given to me for this exact purpose. I dug around in the tool drawer for a few minutes, thinking, maybe I dreamed these up. Nope, there they were on the bottom layer, just waiting for their moment. Clip, clip, clip, clip, they cut through the reedy stems with ease. It made me want to walk outside and find a hedge to prune.
I miss my friends. It’s so hard. You know. I miss work. I like to work. I like to work with people. I like the energy of different people. I can manage it well. I can flow inside of it.
While I tried to make myself invisible by wearing headphones, which is impossible, I overheard my children giving positive feedback to other kids in the breakout group. I gave them positive feedback about that. At some point, two children were sitting on a couch, in the sunshine, reading. It lasted for almost 20 minutes and it was beautiful. All things come to an end, but I know that this is possible.
Later, I google “Neon pink clogs, fuzzy hooded sweatshirt,” realize I’m wishing I had Parker Posey’s wardrobe from Party Girl, which is on Criterion Collection right now and yes we watched it and yes, yes, I showed the first 10 minutes of it to the girls, because yes, yes, yes, what about NYC? What about fuzzy hoodies and platforms and dance music, oh my! God, I love that movie. What about how two weeks ago, Brendan put on the beginning sequence of The Royal Tenenbaums and now Pia puts on the character of Margot and pretends to strike a match, lighting her invisible cigarette, cupping her hand around the end of the pretend cig so as to shield it from the wind, so easily, so…perfectly?! I say No, Pia, you can’t pretend that and then I realize all my cancer and death talk matters not, so I walk it back and say Please, just don’t do it in front of anyone else.